alice is now in musicland

Funny to see how someone who used to mean a whole world to me now means only nothing

I tweeted this last night because yesterday reminded me of several things. of a man, actually, who used to means a lot to me.

but then one of my friends said that…

Yes, the time heals all wounds. But how?

How?

I didn’t know why but the next thing I knew was I said this to her:

in my opinion,time heals by letting our heart creates new cells to replace the wounded ones.

time heals by letting us know that we’re actually surrounded by people who care for us and love us wholeheartedly..

and time also heals by letting us meet several new people so we could start over something new..

but the most important of them all,time heals because God let them all happen,sometimes in a way that we might not understand,but we just have to believe that it’s happened for the sake of goodness :)

I know i might be ‘sotoy’ or something, but well… these are things I believe :)

I used to enjoy being gloomy.

I mean… like, being a drama queen, living in my own soap opera.

but then i realized that many people felt sad to see me sad, too. and knowing that some people still care… it made me think twice before being such a gloomy person.

but now it’s coming to my life again.

i thought it was because of the PMS, you know, that infamous pre-menstrual syndrome. but then i realized, i’m having my period now and i still feel gloomy, so then there must be something.

two things, actually.

the first is that this year, some of the members of our orchestra mahawaditra are leaving, either to study or to work. i know they go for good, but i can’t deny the feeling of lost i feel inside :’(

and the second one..

well now i would like to ask you.

have you ever had your own sunshine?

i mean the one that keeps you smile all day, the one who brightens your day, the one who argues with you sometimes, yet in the end both of you will forgive each other.

now i lose that one

i lose my sunshine

well actually i’m not losing this one at all… it’s just like… you know, it’s a normal thing, to have day and night in your life. and the sun never leaves, actually, but it’s only not his time to show up

i know it’s normal, the night will pass, and the day will eventually come

yet i miss my sunshine

and it makes me gloomy these days..

silly me